Lauren//Jeno: 野心很大的人

Hihi.. So I just completed my 3 years of study in Ngee Ann Polytechnic and has UNOFFICIALLY graduated! (have yet to attend the graduation ceremony / get my diploma / sure that I don't have to retake any of my modules....)

Anyway the last exam paper was on 18 February 2013 and it's been 1 month since I'm completely free and slacking at home. ~~Doing nothing. Really nothing, because I'm still not sure of what I want to do...~~ That's bad because when you have no ambition / dream, you have no drive..

Nonetheless I have a list of things to do, mostly consisting of things that I really want to do (if I don't have to worry about money and future but to do them just to enrich my soul and make myself really happy) and I really really really hope to achieve and do some of them. :) Beside the things to do I will include a reason why I want to do it or why doing that will make me happier so that I can convince myself to do it. I need drive!!!!!!!!!!!! OK I BELIEVE I CAN DO AND I WILL. :D

PS. Woke up in tears several times so I did a research and found out that people who cry in their dreams / wake up with tears are people whose souls are mourning.. Means my inner soul must be really sad?? :( But they also said it's a healing sign and a form of release for negative emotions so ok...
Ref: http://www.janeteresa.com/when-you-wake-up-crying/comment-page-1/

Learn to play Mahjong 台灣麻將跟廣東麻將

LOL I've downloaded many Iphone games to practice and learn mahjong but I still 一头雾水, I think mahjong have to learn personally from someone / see people play can learn faster.

Learn DANCE / Yoga

I have been contemplating whether I should take up dance classes ever since last year, or perhaps last last year if I don't remember wrongly. But it's always the $$$ problem because Mom doesn't really support this hobby of mine so I have to pay for my own lessons if I really want them! But I seriously think dance is a good form of exercise and I miss my slightly slimmer body when I was still dancing three years ago. Whoa, thinking back, I used to practice dance two / three times per week, three hours per practice! Imagine the sweat and the fats burning away. Dancing is so much more fun than running / gym-ing. Heh. :D And I also want to pick up Yoga, if possible. :)

I miss those days in MDC.. Look at the dressing room, SO MESSY!!! Packed with costumes and stuff.. 可以在台上表演的感覺真的很好，很想念那種感覺。。。

And I used to be able to do splits (refer to above picture, me on the right) but now I can't even do a proper bend forward while sitting down.. :( WHERE IS MY 柔軟度？

And she's one of my greatest motivation!!! YO YO LIEN!!!!! 女神！超喜歡她跳舞時散發出來的那種味道！And this is also one the type of dance that I love the most! 柔中帶鋼！性感不失態度！強！

And she's my another motivation. Need I say more?

One day I shall be able to kick this high again :P

She's the new brand ambassador for Adidas and LOOK AT HE ABS! ~~And I think she's a more suitable Adidas ambass than Rainie.~~

Nicest body :') But that's A LOT OF HARDWORK! -salutes-

Not saying I want to be able to do this but her drive to learn all the "impossible" things is what I want to have!!!!!!

This is her new image for the 10th MV for Beast (MUSE Album) that was released on 13.03.13. A small part of her performance on the 旋轉鋼管 was also featured and WHY SO RED!

The MV honestly is somewhat similar to Lady Gaga's feel but ok let's not compare the both of them. :D

Dye my hair (I know my hair is still not long enough to be able to do this but I still want!!!!)

I want either blonde / light brown to pink..

Or light brown to purple. or light brown to pink then to purplish tips. :D

TRAVEL TO TAIWAN

This is probably the thing that I want to do the most but I don't know why this is not at the top of the list. And because I want to travel to Taiwan, I am working and saving up!!!! (To be honest at the end of the day I don't even know if the trip is confirmed but nonetheless..) And I have already 下定決心 to apply to Taiwan's Uni (世新大學）but since my parents are not approving of that, I shall save up my own 學費 and 生活費 then apply again next year! (hopefully next year I still have the passion in media studies and the drive to study) And I seriously hope 1 year will be enough for me to save up my overseas expenses because I don't want to waste anymore time! THIS SHALL BE THE BIGGEST 推動力 FOR WORKING AND SAVING MONEY!!!

I was so reluctant to find a job after slacking at home for 1 month after the exams but I really need $ for the Taiwan trip / overseas studying so I took up this job offer that the agent offered me with Singapore Exhibition Services. It's a temporary job till early June'13 and it's mainly data entry / telemarketing (-.-) but NO CHOICE BECAUSE BCG NO REPLY ME WITH REGARDS TO THE RP JOB THAT'S PAYING $9/HR! Pfft. So I accepted this offer at SES since it has something to do with events / media... But Taiwan, WAIT FOR ME OK!!! 存夠錢我就飛過去了。(It's my biggest dream to study and live there but how about my parent?!?!!?!!?!??!) I'm also going to take up tuition / weekend jobs to earn more and save more so that I can faster realise my dream!!! And talking about saving, I'm pretty serious this time ok, I shall not dine in restaurants for no good reason (unless it's like Mothers' Day) and I will not go for movies or whatsoever recreational activities very often. ~~But I kinda miss clubbing LOL!~~